20121208

The way God intended...

I'm in Muskoka, more precisely, the town of Kearney, and this is what is meant by getting a life.

20121207

Starting the trip right...

With a large double-double at Tim Hortons Yorkdale. It's just upstairs from the bus terminal.
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Cameron Stevens - http://cstevens.ca
Sent from my BlackBerry 9790 or PlayBook on the Rogers Wireless Network

Six days of BlackBerry...

Today I begin a trip, actually two trips where I visit my sister in Huntsville, help out some people with web development along the way, visit a friend in Breslau, Ontario, and then get to visit the home of my favourite communications tools, RIM... It's 6 days on the road and I'm taking 1 backpack, My BlackBerry Bold 9790, and my BlackBerry PlayBook as my computing tools.

I will have a Kobo eReader on-board for some additional reading, but this is my adventure.

I will try to post updates here as I go.

Day 1: Up at 5AM... all packed, catching a bus at 0720h

20121126

Oh! You pretty things...

David Bowie may not have been thinking of this...

It was not one man who sold the world, it was all of us selling out on the dream the dream of being good people who could live for the good of others. We're selfish, but this is no surprise we're human. We have needs and we deem them more important to be satisfied for ourselves than of others. Even this post is a selfish act of telling you, the reader, that you are to blame for our downfall. We're all just a little too greedy, to much of that "ME GENERATION" to see it.

Changes would be nice to see, but the few who try to make a difference, they fail because their generosity is eroded and fed upon by the takers in this world, the world has so many people who need love, a leg up, and help, but the moment there's a chance for those folk, there's some else there ready to take advantage or simply destroy that hope. It's the nature of humans, we're the worst of God's creations. We are the only species that goes out of its way to destroy the goodness that we've been given.

We need Heroes to lead us, but we're left with pawns of corporations that pretend to lead us while looking for their share of our pie. We have idealistic escapes while we look for Life on Mars, but we find nothing, and do nothing, to save our home, our mother Earth. Even if you don't believe in God you must have noticed the beauty of this planet and while it may not be dead before you leave this place, there are generations that will be living with problems you disregarded, contributed to, and left behind. Anyone one who does not feel they are Under Pressure to make this place a better place is a criminal in my mind.

It is not simply the ecological disaster we have created it's the hatred! Why are we so set on having contempt  for each other? We need love each other, not look at our faults as differences to set one above another, but to define a Modern Love, that does not regard boundaries as lines upon which to lay defences, but rather to build bridges. We need to look to the future to the Golden Years of humanity, but we have a problem if we look at the core of our being, humanity is a baseless foundation. It is for this reason that we seek faith, God, the discipline of the laws of a higher power. Some people recognize that faith, those laws are a salvation, some take liberties with beliefs and turn them into a tool of hatred, humanizing faith and disregarding the laws as they were intended. Jesus told us to love each other, not love each other conditionally. He did not tell us to judge each other, he simply told us to LOVE EACH OTHER.

Why can't we do this?

My beliefs teach me that to love another person, I must first learn to love Jesus, love God, first. This is my quest, to seek a path that allows me to follow Jesus' example, to LOVE GOD before all others. Once I get that figured out, then maybe I can love everyone else with the same, unconditional love that Jesus loves us all with.


20121108

Failure is only a perception...

It seems to be that your own success is often masked in a belief that you have failed when in fact you may not have.

20120521

Wearing My Emotional Kevlar Vest

The cool night air wafts through an open window, there is a slight need to suppress the anxiety that I am actually unemployed, again, and not on vacation as I am telling myself. I face the reality with some trepidation and with a goal to re-discover my path, to cast into some foundation a plan by which to be employed and move forward with my life. This "vacation" is a short time to discover myself again, to examine the job market and what I must do to be, or become, marketable for a position with some longevity.

I have been assured that I am good at being a help, a blessing, but being a technological good samaritan doesn't pay well. I need to be paid well enough to pay all my bills. I recognize I have too many bills, too much overhead, to live comfortably. I need to reduce costs.

Some would suggest to take on a boarder, that might work, but it's so hard to trust these days.

Anyway, the vacation ends June 3rd. I'll keep you posted.

20120324

Have we lost it?

Okay, so you're wondering what "it" might be.

It... IT is that thing we hold on to when life seems to be getting too much to handle. When we have finally lost "it," whether we know it for ourselves or not it is the sign that we have run out of the sanity we are expected to have, day-in, and  day-out.



20120314

"What are you good for?"

The negative air about that question is dangerous, but it's a question we need to ask ourselves from time to time, especially if you're like me and while you have skills, they have been diluted by being in a position that has not utilized them well, or may not even have a title or description that would garner hope from an observer.

My name is Cameron Stevens and I'm responsible for...   

My name is Cameron Stevens and I'm go at...    

My name is Cameron Stevens and I make...

My name is Cameron Stevens and I'm a technical problem solver.

The question becomes, "What is a technical problem solver?"

This is much like, "What are you good for?"

Finding purpose in what I do is challenged by the vagueness of what I profess to be, I am a Jack of I.T. and I need to better define what I am... but I'm having trouble doing this right now. I know I'm good at what I do, I simply need to find a way to define it.

20120214

Like your Job? Give back and be happy, really.

Community will get us through this, but we've forgotten what this is.


20120117

I Am A Technology Junkie

"Hello, my name is Cameron and I am a Technology Junkie."

I confess, technology is one of those things that just never stops amazing me, it's remarkable what people will build and I can't get enough of it. To my credit, it's not that I blow my pay cheque on technology, frankly I read about it and go through a constant churn of ideas of how I might be able to use the stuff, for practical or impractical purposes, on a day-to-day basis.

This is my porn, though not something that's sexual. A cool device, or some interesting new computer language, or a neat new software gets my day of on the right foot. Even a retro experience that takes me back to the days of my youth and the technology we've left behind can be fun. I still have a diskette (3.5" floppy) that has a game I played in (approximately) 1985 on it, it's on a USB Floppy Drive and every few years I set it up and play it a little, not on a Virtual Machine (VM), but is technical nostalgia. It's also someone's legacy. I talked to the developer, a former Air Traffic Controller, who had to give that up because he was going blind. The game was shareware, "Dulles" was his legacy, It is why I pay for Shareware I find useful. I never paid for Dulles, I lost track of the developer before I could send him $20. This was back in the days of CompuServe and before The Internet and PayPal, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't have tried.

My passion for technology is my advantage, I see the purpose and function of technology and mentally play with it even when I can't touch it yet. I store it's existence away until a need comes to light, and I share my discoveries, the best ones, so that others can do the same.

I might be an addict, but not in the worst sense. I maintain that my passion for technology has a selfless, help others, sentiment to it. I try, daily, to be a blessing. Perhaps technology is just my tool to that end.